Friday, March 25, 2011

Pondering thoughts...

This past week I had my 2nd ultrasound for a follicle check. I go back on Monday for another and she said that I will probably get my hcg shot too. So this week we will be doing the IUI I am sure. I am so nervous, but very excited!

A sweet friend recommend a book for Matthew and I to read. It's called, Hannah's Hope. I am so thankful she shared with me about this book! I am only on the 3rd chapter but I feel like I have such a connection with Hannah! It's really amazing to think that a girl, two thousand years ago felt the same way I do today! I have learned that God had the desire to create new life. He created us in His own image, with many of his attributes, so it is no surprise that we have the same desire to create a new life! So how can it be selfish or wrong to want this? I know I don't deserve this and He doesn't owe me anything, not even an explanation of His choices. God sees the big picture from beginning to end. I can only see my little piece right now. I have struggled the most with jealousy. It seems every time I go to the store or get on facebook someone else is having a baby."A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones." Proverbs 14:30 When I read this I felt shameful for letting myself and the devil root so much jealousy and envy in my heart.I felt bad about asking why or how can a girl who is not even married have a baby. She doesn't even realize how much of a blessing it is! But God allows"unloved"women the gift/trial of pregnancy to demonstrate His love to them. Just as God may want to use my empty arms to bring me closer to Himself, god may challenge another woman i don't feel "deserves" a baby with such a gift so that He can ultimately remind her that He is still God. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


Matthew's brother, Tommy Staggs, has announced that he is now a member of SSM Records, new country group, Demetree! They are working on there first album now and their first concert is March 31st at Silverado's in Nashville! So watch and listen for this new group! It's gonna be awsome!
We are so exicted for Tommy, Kelly, Will and Ella and what God has instore for them! He has worked so hard to get where he is!

I left feeling...

Exicted...Overwhelmed...Nervous...That I hope I made the right decision...

I went back to see Dr. Malizia yesterday. We got all my blood work back and she started going over what to do next. She has given us 3 options. I am still going back and forth on two of them. We are going to do an IUI ( intrauterine insemination ) this month. We can only do 3 cycles of these though. But she did say it raises our chances 50%. I just hope we're on the right side of the 50%! Our insurance doesn't cover this procedure, but I know our God will provide for us financially and mentally that we are making the right decision. I quess I am going back and forth with this because I just want to make sure we do every little step possible before doing something really big! My other option was surgery. She would make sure everything is ok and fix it if it's not. Like endometriosis, she could take it off, or if a tube is blocked she would open it. But, it is elective and it's surgery! Another concern, Harold is having knee surgery next week so I will be the main surgery person to make sure everything is covered and running smoothly. I know as we get closer to ovulation we will be at the doctor every morning for at least 3 days. So I am just praying for peace and a knowing that His time will show through to where we will be able to do this. If that makes sense. We serve a mighty God and I am so excited to see what is to come!! We have some wonderful friends and family that are praying for us. I cannot begin to describe the peace and the love I have felt these past few months. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!

Our trip to Nashville!

For my birthday this year, Matthew got us tickets to see Amy Grant and Michael W. Smith at the Ryman in Nashville. I love and grew us listening to both of them so it was so great to see them together!! It was a awesome concert!

We left on Monday after our doctors appointment and got there around 4. We had dinner with Tommy, Kelly, Will and Ella at a BBQ place called Judge Beans BBQ. It was featured on Diners, Drive-ins and Dives. It was sooo good! Tuesday morning we got up and had breakfast a Pancake Pantry in downtown and just walked around. I think we went to 20 boot stores! We say 3 doors down shooting a music video in one of the ally ways. It was pretty neat to stand there and watch! We went to the Charlie Daniels Museum and stopped by Tootsies. We then headed to historic Franklin. It was such a beautiful day to walk around and see the sights. The concert started at 7:30 and I had made dinner reservations at Union Station.

Wednesday we checked out and headed to the Grand Ole Opry. We walked around the hotel and got some ice cream. The mall still isn't open so we went to the bass pro shop. Can't pass that up! Above is a picture of us at the hotel.

There were Elvis' everywhere in Nashville! I got my picture made with at least 4!

Before we left to go on our trip we went to our first doctors appointment at Alabama Fertility Specialist. We saw Dr. Malizia. She is so nice and listens to our concerns and takes her time. We left there feeling excited to see what the next step is!